Inside Robin Williams Complicated Legacy: Recapturing the Funny Amid the Tragedy

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Anunknowable void remains between Robin Williamsthe man and Robin Williams the myth.

Various deep dives have piecedsomeof the puzzle together, including Dave Itzkoff‘sdefinitive 2018 biographyRobin and the HBO documentaryRobin Williams: Come Inside My Mind.In April 2020, his estate launched a YouTube channelfeaturing clips of Williams performing, as well as interviews with fellow actors and comedians sharing their insight about the late entertainer.

And in 2022 his status as one of the all-time great stand-ups was re-cemented when he was inducted into “The Hall” in a Netflix special of the same name.John Mulaney, also known for endearingly mining his own personal struggles for humor, did the honors.

“People like to theorize that comedy all comes from a place of pain and sadness,” Mulaney said in his introduction. “And people like to talk about comedians as if we do what we do because of some inner darkness.This is especially thrown around when discussing Robin Williams—and with all due respect, f–k off with that s–t.”

Perhaps a timely reminder that maybe Williams wouldn’t actually have wanted people focusingas much on the sad stuff as we’ve been so inclined to do since his utterly shocking death by suicideon Aug. 11, 2014,at the age of 63. His raison d’êtrewastoentertain, after all.

Not that he didn’t make it known that wasn’tentirely the case.

There were his self-deprecating stories about booze and drugs, a relapse in 2006 after 20 years of sobriety andan unequivocally macabre thread running through much of his comedy and into a number of his film choices, especially in his later years.He hadtalked about depression or, more his style, joked about itand danced around it—sometimes literally, so kinetic was his comedy.

Itwasn’t reportedfor more than a year after he died that Williams was suffering from Lewy body dementia, a Parkinson’s-like disease that attacks motor function and the mind, when he decided to take his own life on Aug. 11, 2014, at his sprawling home nestled in the San Francisco Bay Area enclave of Paradise Cay.

Either wouldbe adevastating diagnosis for anyone, but compounded with an already fragile emotional state, an addictive personality and a life’s work based on mental agility and rapid-fire talk and movement,it became anirreconcilable fate for Williams.

His survivors included his wife of three years, Susan Schneider, andthree grown children: son Zachary Pym, now 43, from his first marriage to Valerie Velardi;and daughter Zelda Rae, 72, and son Cody Alan, 34, with second wife Marsha Garces, who had previously beenZak’s nanny. They finalized their divorce in 2010. (Velardi said in the 2018 HBO documentary about her ex that he did not start seeing Garces until after they separated in the 1980s.)

“It was not depression that killed Robin,” Susan told Peoplein November 2015. “Depression was one of let’s call it 50 symptoms, and it was a small one.”

The symptoms of Lewy body”present themselves like a pinball machine,” she continued. “You don’t know exactly what you’re looking at.”

“I’ve spent this last year trying to find out what killed Robin,” Susan said. “To understand what we were fighting, what we were in the trenches fighting and one of the doctors said, ‘Robin was very aware that he was losing his mind and there was nothing he could do about it.'”

Plus, there was always the delight of his talk show appearances, mini performances every one of them, when he had one of his movies to promote—and he always had something going on.In addition to regularly showing up for periodic Comic Relief specials, which he started hosting with Whoopi Goldbergand Billy Crystalin 1986, he had a hit with 2002’s Robin Williams: Live on Broadway.

His2008 tour and subsequent HBO special Weapons of Self-Destructionearned him his ninth Emmy nomination. (Williams said he considered naming the tour”Remember the Alimony,” financial precariousness due to his two divorces and lavish lifestyle a frequent topic in his later years.)

AsLewis Black remembered his friend in a clip on the Williams YouTube channel, “The vulnerability that he brought on stage with him,I don’t know how you can describe that to people, but he had it, in a sense that I really don’t want to be anywhere else but here—and not because of me, but because of you.”

Williams’ mind “was a museum of a lot of different rooms,” Crystal told E! News at theCome Inside My Mindpremiere in 2018. “There was the funny room, there wasa hilarity room, there was a quiet room, there was the sad room. There was just the empty room that nothing happened in that, I don’t know, we would fill up with laughter, we would fill up with characters, we’d fill up with just talk as friends.”

“As we got older, over the years,” theCity Slickersstarcontinued, “when we really started to understand each other and how important friendship can be, that mind—he started to let it open up to me, and mine to him. From your mind, that leads to your heart, and that’s where we ended up.”

Also at the premiere,Bob Saget—whose sudden death at 65 from a head injury in January 2022 was another blow—called Williams’ death”a loss across every board,” referring to his friend’s wide-ranging body of work and the generosity that prevented him from turning down any performance if it was for a good cause. “It’s incredibly sad he’s gone.”

In the last year of his life Williams had returned to a starring role on TV for the first time sinceMork and Mindy, playing Sarah Michelle Gellar‘s advertising-exec dad in the CBS sitcom The Crazy Ones, but the show was canceled in May 2014 after one season. During filming he lived alone in an apartment in Los Angeles.

“I’m kicking myself for not visiting him during that time,” his son Zakwas quoted inItzkoff’sRobin. “Because I think that was a very lonely period for him. In retrospect, I feel like I should have been there, spending time with him. Because someone who needs support was not getting the support he needed.”

When the show was in the works, however, there was a lot of excitement and hopes for its success, considering its co-leads.”He is a legend,” Gellar gushed about Williams to E! News in 2013. “Think about it: Greatest stand-up comic of all time, Academy Award winner and nicest man on the planet.”

“It’s like if Gandhi did stand-up,” Williams quipped.

When he died, Gellar joined the rush of former co-stars, friends and fans paying tribute, writing on social media,”My life is a better place because I knew Robin Williams.To my children he was Uncle Robin, to everyone he worked with, he was the best boss anyone had ever known, and to me he was not just an inspiration but he was the father I had always dreamed of having.”

The Buffy the Vampire Slayerstarcontinued topay tribute in later years,posting on what would have been his birthday in 2019,”Grief takes everyone on a different path. On my journey, I have finally reached the point, where when I think of you, instead of the rush of hot tears, I feel a huge smile spread across my face.”

Which had to have been what Williams would have wanted.

Williams serving in an inspirational, paternal, or otherwise life-changing capacity would become a running theme from those who crossed paths with him over the years. Ben Affleckcredited him with no less thanjump-starting his entire career by agreeing to be inGood Will Hunting, which in addition to earning Williams a Best Supporting Actor Oscar made Best Original Screenplay winners out of Affleck and Damon.

“Most people can’t point to the moment that changed their life in such a dramatic way, but I can,” Affleck told The Guardianin late 2016. “It was the moment that Robin decided to take a flyer on that movie. I’ll always feel a huge debt to him although now I’ll never get to repay it.”

What happened to Williams eventually was “one of these incredibly horrible diseases that destroys the mind,” Affleck said, “and that was especially cruel to a guy like Robin who was always so brilliant and quick-witted.”

Plenty of people witnessed Williams’ excessive behaviorwhen he was coming up as a young comedian in the 1970s and early 1980s. But as time went by, he rarely slowed down long enough to give his co-stars or crew pauseas far as his mental state or addictions were concerned. He was always taking on new projects, always trying to make people laugh, always showing up for others.

Drinking is “trying to fill the hole, and it’s fear and you’re kind of going, ‘What am I doing to my career?'” Williams reminisced on Marc Maron‘sWTFpodcast in 2011. “And you start thinking, ‘You know what would be great at this point? Rehab!’ But it’s the idea of, just, you bottom out.”

He toldPeople in July 2006 that becoming a father had inspired him to get sober.

“I wanted to be awake and aware [for the kids],” Williams said. “I did not want to miss anything that they do or say.” Riffing ona bit he added to his act in 1986, he cracked, “You are pretty much on drugs anyway when you have a kid. You are awake. You are covered in s–t. But it’s okay, you know?”

And “if I had a choice to erase from my life something,” he continued, “I would leave all the memories of my children…even the memories when they misbehave because it is still extraordinary.”

He fell off the wagon months later and checked into rehab in Oregon in October 2006.

That’s what Williams was so brilliant at doing, crafting narratives off the top of his head. Or at polishing well-worn thoughts that he claimed no longer plagued him.

But overall, he insisted that he was in a good place, that the criticism that used to immobilize him earlier in his career no longer had that effect.”That’s the ultimate freedom of letting go, in a weird way,” he said.

Eerily, in a 2012 episode ofLouie that was shot in black and white, Williams and Louis C.K.show up at a desolate funeral for a man they didn’t like.They part wayspromisingto attend each other’s funeral, whoever went first.

Dawber said she sensed he was having health problems but didn’t want to intrude.

Even when he was having trouble remembering his lines for Night at the Museum: Secret of the Tomb, which he went back to filming in Vancouver afterThe Crazy Oneswrapped in February 2014, no one wanted to ask himabout it. “He wasn’t in good shape at all,” his makeup artist Cheri Minnstold Itzkoff. “He was sobbing in my arms at the end of every day. It was horrible. Horrible. But I just didn’t know.”

One night, thinking it would boost his spirits, Minns encouraged Williams to go out and do some stand-up at a local club. Instead, the suggestion made him cry, she said. “He said, ‘I don’t know how anymore. I don’t know how to be funny,'”she recalled.

Williams had done drama effectively over and over, but he hadlaunched his career bybeing the funniest guy in the room and it’s painful to think of this scene unfolding in real life—as are all the otherscenes described in RobinandCome Into My Mindwith regard to Williams’ last days.

After getting the initial diagnosis of Parkinson’s on May 28, 2014, he told a small circle of people. “I never heard him afraid like that before,” Crystal recalled. “This was the boldest comedian I ever met—the boldest artist I ever met. But this was just a scared man.”

Because Williams knew that there was an expiration date—unknown, but looming—for the talentsthat had defined himfor his entire life. “Stand-up is survival,” Williams is heard saying inCome Into My Mind. “For me that’s jazz, that’s what I have to do.”

And what we have to do is remember he wanted us to laugh. Read on to see Williams’ life in pictures: